Make your mistakes, next year and forever.”
― Neil Gaiman
So here we are in the final chapters of the year 2012.
For me, this year has been filled with good laughs, good times, good friends, good lessons, and better me.
I think this was the year that I actually grew up. I went into this year with a broken heart and most of the year was spent trying to get back to my old self.. and thank the lord I finally found it. 2012 was the year that I realized the ONLY people I need are four girls that I like to call GWAF. 2012 was the year that I watched a persons world fall apart and I was able to help them get through something that truly impacted my life in ways I could never describe. 2012 brought me a summer full of so much joy and smiles that I will never forget. 2012 was a roller-coaster and it was rocky and sometimes I thought I would never be happy again, but 2012 ultimately turned me into a person that I'm actually starting to like. So, that's a plus right?
The moments:
so, I got my heartbroken in 2012. I thought I was inlove, but looking back now I'm sure what I was feeling was far from love. But I mean, anytime you get rejected or treated badly by a person you really and sincerely care about of course you are going to be hurt. this year I guess I was hurt more often and maybe I took things too personally and maybe I stuck around for too long, but I can honestly say I don't regret a single thing. while moving on from this person, I became the happiest and freest I have been in my entire life. I have learned so much about myself and about love thanks to this person and I can honestly say now I am thankful for what I was put through and what happened between myself and this person. and I can honestly say that I will forever care about and never regret this person because of the lesson they taught me. so hey mystery boy. thank you.
This past summer, one of my closest friends older brother died in a plane crash. It was honestly one of the hardest things I have ever had to watch someone go through and it seriously put so much into perspective for me and it truly changed the way I look at life and my own brother. I try so hard to be nice to my siblings and to make sure they know how much I love them and how glad I am that I have them as siblings. It also made me realize that life is short. We only have so much time on this planet to make moments and memories because our time is limited. I am so proud of my friend Maddie for getting through it and for being so strong. I love you so much my Slug bug. <3
This summer man.. best summer of my entire life. I was the happiest and wholest I have ever been in those three short months than I have ever been! I met so many amazing people and I gained so many friends and I know I will never forget Summer of 2012. It was SO good to me. I think that's where I left my heart honestly.
The Party. Do you know what one I'm talking about? Well. Baylee's parents went out of town... and it was on a Wednesday afternoon where Codie and I took matters into our on hands. We pooled together our money and hired a Dj. We spread the word in a matter of 24 hours. We spent the entire next day cleaning and preparing for the first and only party of the Summer and we had to make sure everything was perfect. I mean come on, no parents.. summer vacation.. and a pool in the backyard. What could be better, right? Well. It was a hit. And it was by far one of my most treasured and favorite nights I have ever spent with my best friends. And we almost got away with it until someone called Baylee's parents.... uh oh... ;)
The camping trip. Oh... the camping trip. Sorry mom and dad if you are reading this because you don't exactly know about this yet. Well..... I told my parents I was sleeping at Codie's. When actually.... I went to Pine Valley with GWAF and we slept at Baylee's cabin. Coincidentally, some of our best guy friends Brooks, Garrett, Ryan, and Brody were down the street at Ryan's cabin. So we all hung out for a while and we were all starving. So Codie and Baylee decided that they would search the freezer for some meat that we could cook for like hamburgers or something.. and just our luck, the only meat that was at the cabin was labled, "Wild Bore." So, we made wild bore tacos. Safe to say I would rather starve than scarf down wild bore tacos. When we were all hating our lives and trying our hardest not to throw up from the smell, the boys decided to announce that they actually had pizza and a cooler full of mountain dew in their truck. It was NOT funny at the time, but looking back I know that was a moment I will never forget.
Junior Prom. My good friend Ryan asked me to be his date at his Junior Prom. He goes to Snow Canyon and I got to Desert Hills but we still all hang out a lot and I was so stoked! My other really good friends Brooks and Brody asked Baylee and Codie and other friends of mine Ashlee Miller, Mikayla Miller, Jon Hall, and Jon Arbizu were also in our group. It was so much fun! The day date was actually kind of a disaster considering we were mobbing with razors which eventually got rolled. Yeah, blood and tears were shed. I was covered in bruises by the end of the day but it was totally worth it. I loved every second of it! The dance was so much fun and I seriously think about it all the time because I loved it that much.
Pine Views Homecoming. Seriously, best dance ever. Everything was just so perfect! James Katoa was my date and he is seriously so funny and he's not too hard on the eyes either if you know what I mean. ;) He's a good friend of mine and I'm so thankful he decided to spend his last homecoming ever with me! Our group was crazy. For the day date we played mud football and that was a blast. The dance was CRAZY our whole group went so hard! My favorite moment was when "I Will Always Love You" came on and everyone sang it on the top of our lungs. Yeah, my voice was done for by the time the dance was over. But it was such a great way to start off the year and I had so much fun. I loved every single person in our group and I loved having James as a date. Yeah, best dance ever to say the least.
Josh Benno. Josh and I started hanging out this summer and I can honestly say becoming Josh's friend was one of the best decisions I have ever made. He really helped me this summer with getting my mind of my broken heart and he was always so nice and was always there for me when I needed someone to count on. I think of him as an older brother and I hope that I can forever keep him in my life because I need him more than he knows. I love you Joshy. :)
The Classy Night. That's what we called it, anyway. Me, Codie, Brock, and Kadan all got dressed up and decided we wanted to have a night full of classy things. I think we tried a little too hard, but it was a really fun and unforgettable night. We got apple cider and went to Olive Garden and we all dressed pretty and I don't think I've laughed like that in forever! We went on top of Dixie Rock and drank our cider and took stupid pictures and felt cooler than we really were. But I loved that night so much and I love those people even more.
GWAF. Anytime, any place. We always are laughing and having a good time. 2012 was the year that we invented GWAF and it just stuck. I spent most of my days with these girls and I wouldn't want to spend it with any other group of girls. They seriously are my family and I know there will never come a day where we aren't girls who are friends. <3
AFAA. These boys mean a lot to me, too. All of you. Devan, Brock, Kadan, Austin, and Jerry. You all know just what to say to make me cry of laughter and you make me feel so happy and so glad to know you all. I'm so thankful for the friendship we all have and I will always love and remember the good times we have had. I love you Afaa.
So here's to 2012. Here's to the hits and misses. The regrets and the memories. The heart aches and the ones who put our hearts back together. The new friends and the old. The smiles and the tears. The summer and the winter. The days that are over but never forgotten.
And here's to 2013. Another year to make better mistakes and to, as cliché as its, have another chance of getting it right.
Xoxoxo,
Bshawty.
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