Well. Here we are. The end of this school year has finally arrived. And all I can say, is WOW. This year went by in a blink. I'm still pretty shocked that it's finally summer and that Junior year of high school is over. It seems like just yesterday it was second quarter and I posted my "Growing Up" post on this blog, and I was so stressed and sad about the thought of the seniors leaving and it was only second quarter! How ridiculous was I?
And now, it's actually here. Tomorrow is the day that we say goodbye to the people we have known forever. They will walk across the stage, get their diploma, and head off on missions or to college or whatever else life has in store for them. And we probably won't even see each other again. Welp, see ya.
I am so excited for summer. I really am. But the thought of the people I have known, been friends with, liked, dated, kissed, loved and just known for pretty much forever is leaving and moving on to a new chapter in their lives hurts. It's hard to say goodbye to the memories and the moments and everything you've ever known. I don't want to say goodbye. I don't want to watch the kids I've known my whole life grow up and leave and peace the freak out. It's hard, and it's scary, and it's just making me realize that soon enough it's going to be my turn and that I am far from ready to grow up.
High school, man. High school is... how to even describe it.
High school is full of mistakes. It's full of screwing up but saying, "screw it." It's full of sleepless nights and sleeping in 'til noon. It's full of falling inlove and getting our hearts broken. Its full of kissing for fun and sneaking out. It's full of taking risks and being careless. It's full of laughing with our best friends and crying over pity stuff we'll end up laughing about later. It's full of learning and discovering new things. It's full of experience and becoming independent. Finding out who are true friends are and who never was. It's about being there for eachother because believe it or not, we're all going through the same things and non of us are alone, and we're all in this together. (High school musical knows waaaassssssup.)
We are all a bunch of kids... but we really aren't. We can try to cling to our adolescents and all the glory it brings us as much as we'd like.. but eventually we're going to wake up one day and we're going to be adults. We won't be kids anymore. We can't be seventeen forever and it sucks and it's hard to accept. As much as we say, "Oh gosh, I can't wait to graduate! Screw High School! I can't wait to get out of this town and be on my own." None of us really mean it. That stuff is going to fun and such an adventure, but the thought that everything we've ever known is coming to an end... nothing is fun about that. It sucks. I have one more football season. One more homecoming. One more year to have fun and live it up before I have to say goodbye to it all. Whether we want to admit it or not, St. George is one of the greatest places on earth. We're all crazy. We meet at swig everyday and talk about whatever there is to talk about and go to walmart to play "You Won't" and make up acronym groups to call ourselves and we hate eachother and want to slap eachother 80% of the time... but in the end, I wouldn't have wanted to grow up anywhere else with anyone else but the kids of good ol' St. G. I'm going to miss the class of 2013 so much, and I am so thankful I got to grow up with them. There are some of you that the thought of you leaving breaks my heart, but I know that's life and at 4:30 tomorrow it's going to be time to say goodbye.
Like I've said before, everything we have now is limited. We only have so many football games and so many bonfires or prom's or simple sunday drives with our friends. One day we have to let it all go and leave it as a memory. It's so crazy to think that the weekends we live for the and the people we love more than anything will one day be all just a memory, and eventually we'll have our own kids going to football games and getting their heartbroken and going through the crazy journey that is high school. But I guess that's life and we can't be seventeen forever. We HAVE to make the best of these days because they truly are the greatest years of our lives and we're going to miss them. We don't get a second chance and we have to YOLO it up and live our lives to the fullest and take all the chances that we can and do everything and anything we want to because now is the time to do it. This is our time to be stupid and reckless and crazy. We can't take a single day for granted because when we do, we're going to blink and it's going to be all over.
These days are going by so fast, and this growing up thing isn't easy. But it's time. So here's to letting go of what we're used to and welcoming something that we're not. I am so happy for you, graduates of 2013. Thank you so much for the many memories that we have made over the years. And whereever life takes you, I hope you'll never forget about high school and all the crazy kids of st george utah. I hope you never forget what each mistake taught you. I hope you go far and I hope you have a life you've dreamed of. I hope you forgive yourself for growing up and I hope that life treats you well. You deserve it.
Good luck, and goodbye.
xoxo.
Bshawty.
