Lust.

So, one of my good friends Steph, sent me this in class today and texted, "read this." to go along with it. The link sent me here.  And well, by the end of the post, it had me in tears.


And you wanna know why? because it's completely true.



Look at us. We're teenagers. We are young and we are stupid and we don't have a clue.We meet. We text, talk on the phone, facetime, and whatever else all night long. We sneak out of windows and we climb in passenger seats. We let kisses go too far. We hold someones hand and believe it means more than it really does. We think we are falling in love, and we think we stand a chance.

And most of the time, one of us feels more magic than the other.

But then we have moments. We have moments where we realize the one thing that has been real all along: The lust.

Too often, we fall for what appears to be there.

Instead of falling for what they are, we fall for what we think they are. And it really isn't fair to either one of you. Expectations start to form and sooner or later we are crushed when we come to find out that the person isn't as perfect as we made them out to be. Hellllllo Lusters!

And it really isn't our faults, some of us don't know any better. And some of us have higher walls than others. But listen to me reader, don't fall for whats on the outside. Don't fall for someone because you make them out to be perfect in your head. And don't fall for someone who doesn't know and understand and overall, love, the most insignificant things about you.


We all have fears. We all have secrets. We all have favorite movies and songs and books and hobbies. We all have scars. And we all have a secret side of us that we don't let anyone see. And until you aren't afraid to open yourself up like a book to another person, and get the same in return, I promise you what you are feeling is not love.

If someone rejects your flaws and rejects the things about you that ultimately make you, you... Then they aren't even worth loving. They are more focused on what they want you to be than what you really are. They want the fake you that gives into their needs and who holds it all together and who acts like whatever they do to hurt you doesn't phase you at all. They want you to not care and they want you to come running whenever they call because, to be blunt, they don't love you. Sorry, but its the truth.

And how could you possibly love someone that hasn't invited you in? You can't invite yourself into another persons soul. If you are infatuated by the way a person looks at you, or the way they bite your lower lip when they kiss you, or the way they hold your hand when they drive, you aren't inlove with them. If you don't know someones passions, and fears, and secrets, and scars, and dreams... How could you possibly love them? You don't even know them.
You may like this person. You may even like them a lot. But you don't know anything about them that is worth loving. And if a person doesn't want to open up to you that way, and be trusting enough to allow yourself to open up as well, you are lusting up a storm my love.

And I promise you, if someone isn't making the effort to get the invite to your soul.. They don't love you. They are guilty of lusting too. And if they reject your efforts to let them in, and if they deny your flaws and expect you to be the person they have made up inside their head for you to be, trust me, you aren't going to want to stick around. Like the post said, they are "loving" you for all the wrong reasons.


Allow someone to love you for who you are. Allow someone to love you for the way you crinkle your nose when you apply your mascara, or the way you whistle without noticing. Or the way you are addicted to old rock bands and oversized t shirts. Or the way you look when you first wakeup. Or the way you laugh a little too loud. Or the way you curse without realizing it. These are the things that make you who you are, and if someone can't accept that.. Who needs them?


We don't even need love right now, you guys. It may seem like the most important thing in the world.. but its not. All I'm saying is know the difference between love and lust before you go giving away your entire heart. Lust is easy and it's exciting to be honest... Love is hard, and it's scary. Hell, it gives us far more to lose. Just chill out and let everything come as it is. We've got a lot of growing up to do.. So let's enjoy every moment of it.


Xoxox,
Bshawty.