Waitin' on the world to change.

Hello readers. It's been a while.

I have had bit of a writers block, (aka too much homework) and haven't had a lot of motive to write anything lately.

But then yesterday, a man walked into an elementary school and killed 20 children.

20 innocent little souls with bright faces and unable to defend themselves. 20 little souls, between the ages of five and ten, that were excited for Christmas, that had a whole life ahead of them. 20 little souls that came to school on Friday full of joy and excitement, and had no idea that one sick man would take that all away before they would even make it to lunch.

20 moms and dads dropped their kids off at school like they would any other day, expecting to see them only a few hours later. 20 moms and dads got a phone call to come pick up their child because something bad has happened. 20 moms and dads rushed to the school in straight panic, frantically looking for their little girl or boy. 20 moms and dads watched other moms and dads hold their kids and take them home. 20 moms and dads had to look around for a child they would never find. 20 moms and dads had to realize that their entire world has just been taken from them.

Isn't odd? Isn't odd that a parent in Connecticut is waking up to an empty bedroom and presents under the tree that will never be opened? Isn't it odd that just because of one deranged man, 20 little kids will be buried six feet under long before they should have been? Their time was cut short.. but for what? Why?

How do we understand something like this? How do we understand what drove someone to want to shoot up an Elementary school? What would make someone desire to watch as they take a life out of a five year old little kid? These questions continue to run through my mind as I'm sure it does to anyone else.

My heart is aching. 20 beautiful little kids who had done absolutely nothing to deserve this. These kids had a whole life ahead of them. They had their entire life to start high school, to get their drivers license, to fall in love, to have a first kiss, to get their heartbroken, to graduate, to go on to college, to get married, to have children of their own, to have fun and have many, many years to live out their lives. And instead of getting to experience any of that, they will be put in the ground this week. I can't even believe this really happened. This stuff shouldn't ever happen. This is an actual nightmare.

I don't really know what else to say about this. All I know is, I am so grateful that Jesus was the one to kiss them and tell them that everything was going to be okay yesterday when they returned home to him. All I know is that this Christmas won't be as merry as the others, because of what this man decided to do on December 14th, 2012.

What this has taught me is that we all take life for granted. We take our families, friends, school, opportunities, and what we have for granted and stuff like this really makes you realize everything in your life you couldn't live without that now a family in Connecticut is forced to. So my advice to you is that you should go hug any little siblings you have any chance you get. Tell your parents you love them and thank them for all they have done for you your entire life. Make sure your best friends know how important they are to you. Don't let a day go by where you don't thank god for all that you have, because you never know if one day it could all be taken away from you.

Mankind is disappointing. So much potential and dreams were killed yesterday. So many personalities and purpose. So many kids will never have a chance and that just breaks my heart. It really does.


I hope there will come a day where there will be no more shootings or murders or anymore of these horrendous cases. And I will be keeping Newtown in my prayers every night.


Merry Christmas readers. I hope you all let this impact you in some way and I hope you too will keep these families in your prayers this holiday season because they surely need it.

And to the 20 newly, beautiful, amazing stars that will be twinkling down over the world tonight, you will never be forgotten. Rest in Paradise sweet angels.

Xoxox,
Bshawty.

"Then, when that blessed day is here, He'll love me and he'll say, 'You served me well, my little child; Come unto my arms to stay."

The Battle With Beautiful.

beau·ti·ful (adjective)

Pleasing the senses or mind aesthetically.

Of a very high standard; excellent.

It’s hard to be beautiful — and even harder to feel beautiful. All our lives, we try to conquer the feeling of insecurity. We try and find some goodness in ourselves and it can be really hard to look in the mirror and feel 100% okay with the way you look. We try SO hard to please not only others, but also ourselves. We buy expensive makeup, we dye our hair, and we have to have the name brand jeans. We do everything we can and we try so hard because we have this crazy thought in our head that if people don't think we're beautiful, no one is going to like us.


Especially teenagers.


But here's the thing, girls. That definition of beautiful is bull. Because there is no definition of beauty. Beauty is everything and everywhere.

The girl who laughs at everything including herself is beautiful.

The girl who is kind and giving to the people around her, is beautiful.

The girl who puts every ounce of her being into something she's passionate about, is beautiful.

The girl who tries so hard to get through the day without falling apart and who stays strong when she has every reason to be weak, is beautiful.

The girl who above all knows the value of a good time and doesn't take life too seriously, is beautiful.

The girl who works hard to get what she wants, is beautiful.

The girl who loves with her whole heart and doesn't give up no matter how many times she gets hurt, is beautiful.

The girl reading this blog post right now, is beautiful.

It's not about the clothing, the hair or the makeup. It's about knowing how to smile no matter what. It's about dancing around your bedroom because you're excited and not giving a crap who is watching you. It's about wearing sweats and pulling your hair on top of your head and rocking it because you just don't care. It's about the look in your eyes when you do something you love. It's about singing in the shower at the top of our lungs. It's about falling in love and not being scared of the outcome. It's about watching the rain fall. It's about kissing that one person for the first time and texting your best friends about it afterwards. It's everything about you that's make you you. It's the way you do your makeup and the way your snort when you laugh. All the little things that make you one of a kind. There is so many things that make you beautiful from the inside to the out.

We battle beauty all of our lives. When in reality, there is no guidelines nor a judge to decide what is beautiful and what isn't. At the end of the day, the only thing we have is who we are and why not love that person? Or at least try our hardest to do so. It's easy to hate who we are, the real battle is to look in the mirror and really believe that we are beautiful just the way we are. I hope one day you can do it, reader. I really do.

You can't lose your mind over a tiny little flaw. Guess what, honey? We've all got 'em. That doesn't make us any less beautiful. The battle we fight with ourselves to be perfect is useless. Because one will never be perfect- No matter how hard you try. Don't lose who you are because you are trying to be someone else. You are beautiful in every single way. In everything you do and in everything you say. You have beauty from your head to your toe weather you want to believe me or not. If someone tries to tell you that you aren't beautiful, don't you dare believe them. That person is the one who is ugly. They have an ugly heart and you should feel sorry for them. Beautiful is everything and anything and beautiful is you. You are beautiful and if you are having a battle with beautiful, throw up the white flag and remember that somebody is going to look at you and think that they have never seen someone as perfect as you. Someone is going to look at you and think that you are the most beautiful thing they have ever seen and you are going to realize that you are worth so much more than the voice inside your head tells you. You are more than beautiful. You are you. And that, my friend, is worth the world. Don't believe any less.


The battle with beautiful is a battle we fight every single day. But you know what, maybe it's time we figure out that beauty has nothing to do with how we look on the outside. If you start to love yourself, people will begin to love you too. A confident girl is a beautiful girl and NO ONE will ever be able to tell you different. So keep that gorgeous head of yours up and conquer your battle. Because you can do it. 



So let's write a new definition to the word "beautiful," Okay readers? How about this: 
 

beau·ti·ful
You. 

 

Speaking of beautiful things, can I just add Harry Styles into this? Geez, man. Be my boyfriend, maybe?
                                 

Novemeber Favorites.

End of Novemeber already? I swear you guys, time is FLYING. Like I swear it was Novemeber first just yesterday. And now we are on to my most favorite time of the year, Christmas! Decemeber is full of blissful things and I am more than ready!  But before we can slide in to Decemeber, I gotta mention some of my fav's of Novemeber. It was a good month and I discovered lots of new things (and new people) which is always a good time. So lets get to the good stuff.

• Sadies was this month! I took one of my really good friends Jordan. He was such a blast and he's one of the funniest kids I know! My group was AMAZING! We all got along so great. The group included: Me and Jordan, Lilly and Bridger, Codie and Devan, Baylee and Austin, Shantel and Deshon, Bayley and Kadan, Aspyn and Ruger, Kenzie and Jerry, Kennedy and Fischer, And Delaney and Jaden. We all got along so well and I haven't laughed like that in ages. It was one of my most favorite dances and our group is SCANDALOUS to say the least. ;)

• Alright, so I have mentioned before that I reccently moved into a new house, which I absaloutely love and adore BTW, and the backyard is ginormous. We have a great deck and a pool and it's going to be sweet in the Summer. But right now for Winter, Kick backs is my latest thing. St. G can get pretty boring. But you can't go wrong with a firebit, acoustic guitars, and a group of great people just chillin and having a relaxed time. My house is the perfect kickback spot. And I'm hopeing that I'll be famous around this time for hosting them. So kickbacks at the Bshawty resident def makes the list for a November favorite!

• Beenies on beenies on beenies on beenies on beenies. I. Am. Obsessed. First of all, it's a total excuse to get away with not doing your hair. Couldn't get better then that! Execpet a boy in a beenie. That's a little better.

• Books. I'm telling you, readers, you can never go wrong with a rainy day, a warm sweatshirt, and a good book. Books are my first love. I could spend hours in barnes and noble with a peppermint mocah and a John Green novel. If you are really looking for an AMAZING book, read "The Fault In Our Stars" By John Green. It is freakin' amazing. I can't even begin to tell you the effect that book has on my life. It's geninus. Pure genius.

• Speaking of books, I saw one of my favs, Perks Of Being A Wallflower made into a movie this month. And I died. The movie was perfect! It captured the book perfectly and it even got me to shed a tear or two. If you want a REAL life changer, go see the movie while you can. Or better yet, READ IT.

• So I'm guilty. I have offially jumped on the One Direction bandwagon. And I fully blame "Little Things" because it is so adorable. And they are pretty easy on the eyes as well. I mean, have you SEEN Harry Styles? I can't even deal. Too cute for words.

• So guess what? I don't have my drivers license. BUT I AM ALMOST DONE WITH DRIVERS ED. Which I am GIDDY about. I'm about to go insane having a cute car and no cute license to go along with it. CarShawty wants to be seen around the town, ya know? But Drivers Ed is on this list because it's going to make me an extremely happy girl in a couple of weeks. If I pass my test... that is...

• Dark Hair, don't care. I've had highlights in my hair since April of last year and it was time for a change. So I'm back to being a full brunette and it feels dang good. Cause brunettes do it better, obviously.

• Owls. Alright, if you really know me, you know that I am obsessed with owls. But I just thought I would mention it this month because I keep seeing the cutest pictures on tumblr. So I had to share. Owls are MY FAVORITE.

• Infinity scarves. Cozy, Warm, and most of all, super cute. What's not to love?

• Catching up with old friends. I just love that. I love when you get a random text from someone you haven't spoken to in a while asking how you are. It really just makes my whole entire day. I came in contact with a perticular person this month and it seriously made me soooo happy to know they still think about me. Warms my heart actually :)

• Pitch Perfect. If you haven't seen it yet, you are seriously missing out. Fat Amy is pure gold!

• Novmeber was a month to be thankful. And I'm thankful for my family, friends, a roof over my head, food on my table, God, and everyone who reads my blog. So thank you, you beautiful amazing human beings for taking time out of your day to take the time to listen to what I have to say. Means the world to me, really does.

Oh Decemeber, please be good to us! I really hope the world doesn't end. I'd like to turn 17 in February ya know?


Xoxox,
Bshawty.  Hello DECEMBER!

Jordan and I :)

The group.

(From The Fault In Our Stars)

 

 

So fill your heart with whats important and be done with all the rest.

Oh, this week has been straight from hell. Everyday just keeps getting worse and worse. Plus, it's only Wednesday. So that's awesome. HA not. FML. Right?

I have had like zero time to blog lately. I hardly had the motivation, nor the energy, to blog today.

But then I came across this on Tumblr.

And boy, did it get to me.


Life is hard. Sometimes life gives us too many lemons. And what are we supposed to do with these lemons? As the cliche' says, we are to make lemon aid.

But sometimes, that is hard, too. Because "lemons"? They suck. Sometimes when life gives you lemons all you want to do is cry and feel sorry for yourself and hide away in your bedroom with depressing music and be angry and upset at the world because things aren't going your way. Or is that just me...


Regardless. When we come into this world, God doesn't give us a book of instructions full of ways to be happy and how to keep our heart in one piece. No, he sure doesn't. When we come into the world, we are put through things because we are told they make us stronger in the end. We are told that one day it will all be worth it. We are told that everything happens for a reason and Heavenly Father has a plan for us all.

And we try and believe it.

There is so many things in the world that let us down. It could be people. It could be money. It could be jobs. It could be school. It could be overall, everything.

If you are one of those people who think that life is just too difficult and that the world never spins your way, It's okay. Because I am like that, too. I get so frustrated with myself. If we are being 100% honest here guys, I have a hard time believing I'm worth anything at all. I care way too much about what people think of me. I give up on myself WAY too easily and things rarely ever go my way. I feel like I'm lost in a world full of people who do not understand and it's frustrating. It really is so frustrating.

But the thing I need to realize, is that I have a purpose. We all have a purpose. My purpose may not be school. I'm probably not destined to be the next Albert Einstein and I'll probably never have a 4.0 GPA or on the high honor roll. My purpose is not sports. I hate running and I can't throw a football for the life of me. (LOL) My purpose is probably not to be a doctor or a lawyer or a multi millionaire. I have no idea what my purpose is. But I know I have one. And I know you have one too.

So what I'm getting at reader, let go of the anything that's weighing you down. Stressed out about school? Do your homework. Study. That's what my life is going to be about from here on out. Are you in a bad relationship? End it. Don't put yourself through anything that you don't deserve. Is someone messing with your heart? Move on. Just move on and forget about them. Don't waste anymore of your time.

Focus on the things that make you happy. Spend your time with the people who make your heart feel whole instead of in pieces. Why would you want to be with someone who makes you cry, while you could be with someone to make you laugh? Think about it, you guys. Get rid of anything in your life that is negative and fill it with positive and fun things.

People are going to leave you. You aren't going to ace every test. You might disappoint your parents time and time again. You will lose some friends. You will get hurt. You will be betrayed. Your heart will break.

But that's life. And like the quote says, fill your heart with what's important. Fill your heart with all the things you love. Fill it with friends. Fill it with good movies. Fill it with education. Fill it with family. Fill it with laughter. Fill it with compassion. Fill it with love for yourself. Fill it with peace and contentness and acceptance. Accept the things you can and change the things you cannot.

But be done with the things that won't change. Be done with the things that hurt you and that make you feel insignificant and small. You have a purpose, and that's for sure. You were put on this earth to find what that purpose is. So get out and find it.

Maybe we can find our purpose together, readers. Maybe we can learn to love ourselves and be happy with who we are together. Maybe we aren't so alone after all.


I hope you all are having much greater week then mine. And if you aren't, well take a look at your life and decide what is holding you back from being happy. And once you find it, forget about it. And then go to swig, get yourself a treat, and listen to your favorite song. Then go and do your homework so you won't be stressed out. Then hug your parents and text your BFF'S and let them know that you love them. Then, I want you to tell yourself that you are important and that you are extraordinary. Because it is the truth. It really is.


With all my love,
XOXOX,
Bshawty.

 

I'm always here for anyone who needs anything. So don't be afraid to send me a tweet if you are feeling down. I'm sure I would loooovvvve to have a good heart to heart with ya. ♥

A girl to call yours.

Hey fellas. It's been a while since we've had a chat. How's it goin? Good? Good.


I would like to have a talk with you today about girls. As a girl myself, I know plenty about the way us mysterious creatures work. And I'm going to help you out.


High school relationships. Most don't work out. Most of us think that they are absolutely ridiculous and a waste of time. But some of us get lucky and as we fall into our first real and true love, It begins to form in what could be for the rest of our lives. Or at least it feels that way, any how. (HELLO SHANTEL AND DESHON.)

Some of us are like, no way no how are we ever going to get sucked in into what an emotional disaster that is a high school relationship. They are messy and they are irrelevant and we think they are never going to make it. But then we come across someone who changes the entire way we see the game. They say the right things and they make us feel all sorts of things we didn't think was possible. They come along and they bring out the best in us. And before you know it, you are head over heels.

But sometimes we fall for a person who is wrong for us. We fall for a person who tells you want to hear because that's just their personality. We call these kids, flirts. They don't mean much by the sweet nothings they say, but to you, it means more then they will ever know.


This is why boys, I'm writing this to you. Because even the strongest and the most arrogant and the coolest of us all have a fragile heart. You can disagree all you want because girls are drama right? Because nothing good will ever come out of a high school relationship, right? Because high school is high school and we only have so much time and none of this will ever matter to us in the future right? Think what you must! But you would be surprised to know that maybe one of the greatest things in life is to love and be loved in return. We too often let our hearts pick the ones who look the best and who have the coolest reputation instead of whats inside of their soul. So I'm going to break it down for you, guys, so listen up. Here is the kind of ladies that you should be chasing. Here are the kind of girls who will be worth it in the long run. So stand by.

• Pick a girl who knows how to laugh. The kind of girl who can trip straight on her face and crack up at herself instead of feel like an idiot. If she's got a great sense of humor, you are set for life. A girl who gets your jokes instead of makes fun of them. A girl who laughs at everything and nothing at all. A girl who can keep you laughing is a girl who can keep you happy.

• Pick a girl who's a thinker. No one likes those ditsy girls who thinks playing dumb makes them adorable. Those girls suck. Pick a girl who can carry out a conversation with you and who tries her hardest to remember the little things about you that makes you so great. Girls who will think of the way you feel and try to understand it. Pick a girl who can thrill you by the ridiculous and crazy things that come out of her mouth. A thinker is def the way to go.

• Pick a girl who's confident. It gets exhausting when you are constantly trying to convince a person they're special. We all have our moments of insecurity and hey, that's okay. But confidence is sexy. Confidence shows that you are completely comfortable with who you are and no one is going to take that away from you. A confident person means that they are a happy person and they are willing to take risks and try new things regardless if they are making a fool out of themselves in the process. Pick a girl who's confident and who knows who she is.

• Pick a girl who's genuine. A girl who stays true to her loved ones and you know you can rely on. Don't let yourself fall for some sketchy chick who flirts up a storm with everybody in town and who you are constantly stressing over. If she's keeping it real with you, and if she's keeping it real with herself, you are in store for a solid relationship. Sketchy chicks can hit the road, see ya.

• Pick a girl who's fun. Someone who won't just want to stay at home and keep you from your friends. That gets real old, real quick. Find a girl who LOVES to be around people and who loves to try new things and who can make the best out of any situation. Pick a girl who you have a good time with and who you enjoy to be around.

• Pick a girl who tries. No one is perfect and that is the truest statement in the universe. But you know what, us girls try our best. We wake up in the morning and we put our makeup on and we curl our hair and we get dressed because we want people to like us. We do it for you. So don't expect us to wake up in the morning looking like Blake Lively. But know, that we try and a girl who tries is a girl who's worth it. All she wants is to be good enough for you and if that isn't flattering I don't know what else is.

• Pick a girl who loves you. A girl who will do just about anything to see you happy and who would do absolutely anything you ask because she cares that much. Just pick someone who cares in general. Don't waste your time chasing someone who has zero intention of you ever catching up with them. Let yourself be happy with a person who wants just that for you. Who will put you before herself and who will always be there to count on. Who will risk things for you and who will make you feel important. Who makes you feel good about yourself and who will never hurt you. Pick a girl who loves you.

• Pick a girl who makes you feel alive. A girl who sings in the shower as loud as she can even though she can't carry a tune. A girl who dances on tables and who you sometimes can't stand but you wouldn't change a thing about her. Because she is ridiculous. And she's goofy. And she's awkward. But she puts color in your little world of black and white. She kisses you in the middle of a sentence and she doesn't play any games except when necessary. She isn't easy to get but she's very easy to keep. She makes you work for the first kiss and she drives you insane. But pick a girl who makes you feel all sort of emotion. A girl you are afraid to lose because you know after she's long gone, you'll never find another person who can make you feel like she did. Pick a girl who calls you baby and who listens to happy music and who reads book and who writes in journals and who would rather spend hours in the passenger sent of your car rather than anywhere in the entire world. Pick a girl who shines from the inside. Who has a kind heart and who you hate to see cry and who can brighten your day with something simple as a hello.

Pick a girl who's worth it, handsome. Pick a girl who you deserve. Don't chase the ones who are too busy chasing someone else and who banish you into the forbidden place which is the Friend Zone. Pick a girl who is what you want and who makes you happy. And don't be too stubborn to give love a try. Because you never know what could happen.


I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving holiday! Let's gain some weight tomorrow, yeah? 


Much love readers, I appreciate you all more than you know. If you ever need a thing, Don't be afraid to hollar at your friend Bshawty.


Xoxox,
Bshawty.

My dear friend Shantel and her boyfriend Deshon. Basically the high school execption and the cutest dang couple in history of earth. ♥♥ 

Here's to you.

'There are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day, others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls, and sometimes, all you need is one.'


  The world is full of people. People who walk in and out of our lives for different reasons, to make impacts on different parts of our own stories. Some of these people make a difference from entering our lives. While others, make an even greater difference by leaving. The littlest things that they do can make the greatest impact. Like by a simple wave or holding our door open or just a "Hey, How are you?" text when you've had a bad day. Some people become our favorite people. People who come along and we wonder how we lasted so long without them. People who leave and we wonder how we are ever going to survive. People who make us whole. People who make us laugh and who make us happy and who make us who we are. People like that.

   The world can be a lonely place. It can be hard to get through a situation without a helping friend or someone there to make you laugh. You know, the kids who are so effortlessly hilarious that you just LOVE to be around or talk to them because you know by just having a single conversation with them your entire mood will be turned around. Like I truly believe that everyone needs a Joey Miller in their life. I love funny people. I mean, who doesn't? But honestly. The world needs to be full of Will Ferrel's and Fat Amy's. The world needs to be full of laughter and goofy smiles because those are the people who make life fun. Funny people are the best people. So here's to the funny kids.

    We all need a sweetheart. Like a genuine and honest kind hearted person. You know those kids who go out of their way to be super nice to everyone? Like who find you in the hallway just to compliment on your outfit or who ask you how you're doing because they care? They are nice to everyone and not in the fake kind of way.. but in the way that makes you feel good about yourself. They make the world a better place by just existing. They are the ones who are going to make a difference and who will change a life. So here's to the sweethearts.

   Smart people. They are the ones who seem to have an answer to everything (cough, cough, Devan Webb;)) They are always trying to fix the situation because they care that much. And you know you can always go to them for a straight up kind of answer. These people see the world in a different light and they are the ones who are going places. They are so smart and they are so wise and it's almost annoying that they seem to have it all figured out. So here's to the ones with all the wisdom.

We all need a rock. We all need that one person to catch us each time we fall. (In my case.. I have a GWAF, but still.) It's such a reassuring feeling to know that we have someone to count on. Like when you have a huge fight with your parents and you just need somebody to listen. Or when you see a cute boy at the mall and you get too nervous to give him your number so you make your BFF do it for you. Or when you get your heart ripped in two and they are the ones to tell you that he's a total idiot and you are too hot for him to begin with. We need besties because they make us feel good about ourselves even when its really hard. They laugh with you and they cry with you and they are by your side in walmart when you run around acting like you have turret's and still can stand to be seen with you in public. So here's to the best friends who are our rocks.

Where's the single mamas at? The ones who are brave enough to do it all alone. They comb your hair and they help you pick out your clothes and they drive you around and they are ALWAYS there when you look back. They do it all alone and they go through more than we can ever imagine. They hold your hand through it all and they don't get half the credit nor the reorganization that they deserve. So if you are being raised by a single mom: Give her a break. She is doing the best she can and she loves you. Even when it doesn't feel like it. So here's the single moms.

And we can't forget the little sisters who would do anything just to be like you. The ones who try on your clothes and lie about it afterwards. They use your makeup and they bug you and they piss you off on a daily but you couldn't picture your life without them. They are beautiful and they are so innocent and they love you more than anything. So here's the pretty baby sisters.


 We all have something to offer. Each and every one of us. The boy on that football field enriches the world by his ability to score the winning touchdown. That tall girl is a heck of a basketball player. The kid who scores 98% on all of their math tests could become the next Einstein. The boy who is a genius on the guitar and serenades just about everyone with his singing voice (HI RYAN PLANTE) could be the next JB. EVERYONE has something to offer the world and has the ability to make it into the better place everyone dreams about. Dare to be yourself, you guys. You are important and you are going to do great things. All of you.


So here's to you. Where ever you are. Whatever you are doing. And where ever you want to go and whoever you want to be. The world wouldn't be the same without you. So take the chances and be YOU and embrace the person that you are! Give every single person who enlightens your life a giant hug and tell them you love them. Count all your blessings and don't take anything for granted. Here's to you.  


xoxoxo,
Bshawty.

 

HAHAHA sorry I had to add that last one.

You could be happy.

What is one thing that us as human beings desire the most? The thing that everyone searches for and that everyone stresses over the fact that it seems so hard? Can you guess this one?


If you guessed Happiness... Ding Ding Ding. You're indeed correct!

We all want to be happy. I'm talking the true and honest feeling that is happiness. From the time we wake up in the morning until we go back to sleep at night we are always trying to find something, anything, to make us feel good. It's the thing we want the most and that can't be denied. We search for happiness in materialistic items, in others, in money, in the way we look, and plenty of other things that at the end of the day, will never satisfy our desire. Too often, we forget to find happiness inside the place where it's located all along: Within ourselves.

 What is happiness?

Maybe happiness is doing what we love to do. Regardless of what others say. Maybe happiness is spending time with those who make us a better person by just loving us. Maybe happiness is driving around on a Sunday evening with your best friend blasting old rock songs and singing LOUD because you don't have a care in the world. Maybe happiness is holding hands with someone you really care about. Maybe happiness is having a sleepover with your baby sis. Or seeing her light up when you ask to her to go see a movie or to accompany you to the mall. Maybe happiness is the breath before the first kiss, or the days spent all alone with a good book. Maybe happiness isn't so out of reach after all.

Life changes like the weather, thats for sure.
Every day has something in store. It could even be our last. So isn't it kind of amazing that you are here? You are breathing? There's a heart within you that is beating. No matter how broken it might feel. You have a mouth that was meant to smile and vocal cords that were made to laugh. You have a life that was made to be lived. Look at yourself. Go look in the mirror and LOOK at yourself. Look at how beautiful you are. Take a deep breath and just know that even if sometimes it feels as if the world will never spin your way, it will. And once you stop searching for the thing or person that is going to turn you into a happier person.. Take a look at yourself and realize that YOU are that person to turn your life around. Unhappy about something? CHANGE IT. You have control over the way you feel and the way you live your life.

Sometimes the bad things out weigh the good. When something bad happens in our lives, we are quick to assume that things will stay awful forever. We tend to dwell in the negativity and sometimes, sadness can be so darkening, It's hard to believe that we will ever be able to see the light again. It's so easy to feel down and give up, and we often become too lazy to fight through trials because we don't believe in ourselves. But realize something, boys and girls: Happiness is a choice. It ultimately is. We choose the way we deal with things and You choose the attitudes and points of view you hold and the way you perceive the world. And you want to know somethin'? This world has lost its magic. It really has. So don't let it beat the magic out of you because it no longer has any itself.

I wish I could tell you how to be happy.. but I know it doesn't help at all. I can go on and on about all of the things that makes life beautiful but if you are anything like me you will think that I'm spitting useless BS because no one understands the way you feel. Being sad is sad. I don't want to convince anyone that you should snap out of it and ignore your bad problems and replace them with some good stuff to help you ignore it. Because you shouldn't ignore it. Life is about feeling. It's about going through a Storm and coming out with a rainbow. It's about falling down and getting back up. It's about losing yourself just to find it again. Life is life. It's difficult and it doesn't make any sense but that's what is so interesting. I believe that the meaning of life is to feel. It's to feel love and to feel sadness and feel faith and hope but also sorrow and emptiness but then to feel content and whole.

One day, everything is going to make perfect sense. All I know is that everyone and everything has a purpose. YOU have purpose. Even if it's hard and even if you feel as no one gives a damn, someone DOES. Every heartache and every tear and every bruised knee and every disappointment. It all makes us who we are. And at the end of the day, that's all we really have anyway. So even if you don't know it yet, remember that every cloud has a silver lining (GUESS THAT COUNTRY SONG.) And you make be shaking your head and thinking that things will never get better, but down the road you are going to realize that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. God doesn't give us anything we can't handle. So even if today isn't beautiful, nor tomorrow, give it time. One day it's all going to make sense and you are going to be happy. I can promise you that.

Stay strong. Don't you dare give up and keep your head above water because you are worth it all. The world is a beautiful place full of evil people who would love nothing more than to see you give up. Don't. You are loved. You are important. And you have purpose.

And with that being said, I hope everyone reading has a fantastic week. Much love to you all! I can't tell you enough how much I adore everyone who takes the time out of their day to give my blog a read.

You could be happy, readers. I promise. Give it a try. You could be amazed with the outcome you receive.


xoxox, Always,

Bshawty.